For those of you who don't know, Amy and I lost our baby Remington after a surgery for Hirschsprungs disease. She went in for her surgery at 13 days old and passed away at 24 days old. This all happened at Toledo hospital, and if we went back there it would be the same group of surgeons. So sending Benzen into surgery is not something we are taking lightly. We are going to meet with a couple of different surgeons and make the best decision we can.
We are going to meet with the surgeons at St. V's first. We are going to meet with them on July 31st. This is good because it will give Benz some time to get bigger and stronger. If that meeting does not go well, we will have to find another hospital.
I can't believe we have to send another one of our babies to surgery so young. I also can't believe that we have to choose between a hospital where we lost our first born and a hospital we have never been to before. Here are my thoughts. Am I a coward for not wanting to have the surgery at Toledo? Everyone deserves a second chance right? Am I running from what could be the best option because of what happened in the past? I know God will give us strength and help us to make the best decision we can. Having said that, I know everything will be just fine.
Benzen is starting to come into his own. He started to smile a little yesterday and today. He also rolled over a couple more times. He seems to love to go to the lake. He likes being outside in the warm with a little wind. We have taken him for a raft ride (which he slept the whole time) and a speed boat ride he seemed to enjoy.
We are heading up to the lake for fourth of July festivities, my aunt Kay's 60th birthday, and my little sister Ashley's 24th birthday.
I hope everyone has a safe and fun 4th!
Ben
You are in such a tough situation. The only thing you can do is pray that God will point you in the right direction. Not wanting to have the surgery done at Toledo does not make you a coward, it makes you a human being. I think most people would feel the same way as you do. Yes, everyone does deserve a second chance but you do not have to be the one to give it to them. You do what you feel is best. Sending lots of prayers and strength your way!
ReplyDeleteEvan had the same type of hernia and had surgery when he was 11 months old. He had his surgery done at St Vs and everything went smooth. You can't even tell where the incision was. I realize that he was much older than little Benzen, but at the end of the night on the day of surgery he was running around and laughing.
ReplyDeleteWe were very nervous going to St Vs as well since Evan had spent the first 3 months of his life at Toledo Hospital. I wish you the best of luck in your decision and just know how great of a support system you all have! Always in our thoughts! <3 Patty, Drew and Evan Stambaugh
:/ poor little buddy! Give him a hug from aunt kasie. I know you and Amy will make the right decision with god and your guys family supporting your move! Take time and enjoy the 4th cause you got alot ahead of ya! And its not a wrong thing about not wanting to go back to the same place remi was... you will feel or seem negative there, I would and I wouldn't be able to help that.. good luck at your 1visit with the doctors.! Much love to you guys!
ReplyDeleteYou forgot to mention that Benz and I are becoming the very best friends. He likes to sweep (sleep) on me at the lake. Whatever decision you choose for surgery we will obvi support and be there with you.
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