Happy Mothers Day!

Benz is doing good.  He sleeps most of the day.  The doctors say he must have been more like 36 weeks along rather the 37 weeks 5 days we thought he was.  Which means he still has some catching up to do.  For example his ear was a little curled over, one testicles has not descended yet, and when he latches on to feed he forgets to breath a couple breaths and his blood oxygen levels fall.  Those thing should correct themselves soon.  The Neurologist came in Friday and said it was great news that he past his hearing test, he also said he see's other positive signs compared to other babies he has seen with CMV.   I spent the night with Amy and Benz in the hospital Friday night.  I hear that I was not that much help because I was so exhausted I never heard him wake up all night, which was a lot.  Sorry Amy!  So far a typical newborn (a night owl).  He still has to lay on the bili blanket all day and night.  I am not even going to guess how much longer because I thought he would be off of that already.
One of my best friends and college roommate Rodger Shingledecker is about to have a baby.  I hope that I have been a good role model for him.  Pray for him and his family for a happy and healthy birth in July.  I know they will do great!
I wanted to title this entry "you see what you want to see."  Amy and I took Beyla to the zoo Saturday morning for and hour or two.  We had a great time!  We only went in the front of the zoo.  We saw the seals, polar bears, took a train ride, and carousel ride.  I know it only seemed this way but, it seemed like 1 in 3 people either had CP, hearing aids, was in a wheel chair, or had some form of Neurological symptoms.  Obviously, we were thinking about what Benzen's life would be like.  I can remember going to the zoo after we found out about Remi having down syndrome, and it seemed like 1 in 3 people at that time at the zoo had down syndrome.  I know your mind plays tricks on you and you see what you are looking for.
I want to say happy mothers day to all the mothers especially to Amy and my momma.  I know that I have put my mom through way too much even before Benzen.  I can't even describe to you all the feeling of having to call or tell your mom face to face that your first born will have down syndrome, your first born will pass away today, your wife has had a miscarriage, your son has serious brain abnormalities, and will never be a typical boy.  This is hard for me to even type.  My mom is a women of little words but you always know she is listening and hurting with you.  I have always been a momma's boy and always will be.  I look forward to telling my mom all the great things about Beyla and Benz.  They are both going to make us all very proud and I truly think Benz will prove a lot of people wrong.  You all know how I feel about Amy.  She is the love of my life, my best friend, and the best mother I could ever ask to be married to.  We will get through this and have an even stronger relationship.
Sorry for the delayed post.
Ben